Coming back to the Magic Box, and feeling even more lost

I can't recall when I had last worked on Edith Squeakton, but it's been too long. I'm already 2 lessons behind. Thankfully, this is a more "at your own pace" course, so there's no huge obligation on finishing them on time.
Sadly this is all I've gotten.

I don't know. Do I really want to go into concept art and work with studios or networks? Do I want to get into this type of illustration? I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with any at all. Maybe it's laziness, maybe my indecisiveness is an excuse, or maybe I haven't tried making as many artistic mistakes to grow and learn. I feel kind of lost. Recently I've been offered to moved to another store so I can be focusing more on print and design jobs. For me, I could use the experience, but I'm not all that passionate about graphic design. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy working on something that requires design, but I'm really spoiled and biased on what I like and want to draw. I seem to like making loose, scribbly doodles than actual finished work.
It makes me wonder, am I fine with working as a webcomic artist being supported through commissions, patreon, and commissions at conventions full-time?
Or do I mind working on storyboards or conceptual work for other people?

Will I be fine with working as a graphic designer at the UPS store I work at while I work on my comics and side projects for a long time?

Or am I better off staying where I am until I pay off my car, so that way I have more free time to work on everything and building myself as a webcomic artist?

I know it's important to grow, but at the same time, I feel like I'm only overwhelming myself with too much information. I recently listened to the Oatley ArtCast interview with Loish, fantastic artist by the way. And she's doing what she loves to do, drawing and painting a lot of beautiful and colorful women, and that's literally what people pay her for. She was true to herself and believed that she didn't have to excel at everything. She still believes in pushing yourself beyond your comfort zone, but it's all to enhance you so you find a way to apply that to your work. I wish I could search within me and be honest, ESPECIALLY with my parents who seem to expect so much from me, as their oldest child.

Sorry that this has become a ranting sob story. I just feel like I'm unable to be honest in fear of disappointing people. I don't know why I concern myself with that.

To lighten the mood, here's that scribbly drawing I was talking about.

It's most of my musically-inclined characters. It's weird how I'm more productive when I'm listening in on a group chat with a bunch of people on Skype while drawing stuff.
Also, finally finished this one Beeswax comic.

You can find it here also.

I'm not going to put up the other doodle I did during the group chat, because it's a little offensive, even if it's funny as hell. Check my tumblr if you are oh-so-curious.

It's strange how hearing the explosive laughter the instant people see your drawings or cartoons, fills you with immense glee and accomplishment. Because that explosive laughter was music to my ears. I seem to live for entertaining.

Moleskin Doodles, Jazza's Robomance Challenge, and My Mistake with Comic Promoting.

Okay then, it's been a while. And honestly, I'm glad to say that my wrist is getting better...but it's only 70% better, where I still have to be careful with it. That wrist brace helped only for a bit, only to end up crushing my hand slightly. Unfortunately, it's that case where I have to wrap it tight to prevent movement, because too loose allows for more pain. Luckily pain-relieving patches and Iodex is helping with the pain.

But that hasn't stopped me from drawing. In fact, here's some moleskin doodles I did during work and colored at home.

Starting with these rat doodles, I was trying to practice rats because I want to make a short comic about this mutant rat character I had in mind. One of the rat doodles is based on LiLaiRa's "Rat Brothers". I love how this person draws rat anthros.

On left is a page for brainstorming for Jazza's Challeng of the Month. February's theme is "Robomance". I had to do a tribute to my favorite OTP (*whispers* Bring back Green Lantern the Animated Series!). The right page is a few left hand doodles. The icecream was right handed.

 This is an unfiltered version of the finished entry. The real entry is going to have some touch ups, due to my horrible lighting and unfortunate lack of finding time in the morning. To see the finished piece, click on this link.

Man, I now understand the power of gathering reference materials, because they definitely helped me. And it helps narrowing down on the essentials you need. Literally my folder has nothing but RazAya, couples eating food, indoor cafes, and sundaes.

Had to do some doodles of my 3 characters for my portfolio...jeez I have not done anything for that portfolio lately. But this was pencil, then ink pen, then watercolor. I like having these colorful drawings in my little moleskin.

 Don't know if I'll finish this one. I just wanted to experiment with some negative and positive space.

 More of my rat mutant, this time with his sewer house-mate, a mutant alligator.

 Some doodles for another short story comic. This was one of my old ideas for that Shounen Jump Manga contest that I missed out on. This had to be filed away since it was more shoujo than shounen. But that's okay, I actually look forward to working on this after Sugar Dominion ^w^

And speaking of Sugar Dominion, I honestly don't know if this story is worth finishing. I just uploaded the 13th finished page, and only need 17 more pages to tone and finish. Yet no comments, reviews, and only 1-5 faves on each page. Where did I go wrong?

 I've announced on my Deviantart that I'm going to release finished pages of this comic. When I do upload those pages slowly, I'm lucky to get like 2-5 faves, but no comments. I wonder if it's because I haven't promoted this short enough, or if the comic just stinks. Should I have done some promotional drawings and doodles to pique some interest? Or is it just a horrible short? What did I do wrong with Sugar Dominion? I don't like the idea of completely trashing this short comic, but at the same time, I wonder if it's like beating a dead horse?

If any of you have any tips or even want to say hi, feel free to do so.

Injured Wrist

 Yeah it happened. I can't recall how or exactly when. Most likely happened at work, and I was putting too much stress on my wrists, especially cutting boxes. Whatever the case may be, I hope that it's minor and goes away after some rest.
And yes, that doodle above was a b!t(# to draw with the left hand and very little involvement of my injured right hand. Thank goodness for Clip Studio and some of the corrective features of the "effect" pen or something. That's the only way I could make those thin to thick lines.

On the other hand, these are some doodles I did. Another card for my friend who is at Global retreat. Sort of a failed zentangle card. Thought it would make a nice little decoration she could color and hang somewhere in her room.

 And possibly the ugliest or creepiest bear I've drawn yet.

Anyway, if you could all pray that my wrist gets better, or that the situation doesn't become too serious, I will appreciate that immensely.

Speaking of hands, everyone take care of yourselves.
In fact, here's some links to some guides I find useful for preventing carpal tunnel and tendonitis.
video for some exercises
http://ros-kovac.deviantart.com/journal/Preventing-Injuries-for-Artists-443501570
drawing with a tablet with less injury
prevent carpal tunnel

Moleskin sketches for Portfolio project

As I mentioned previously, I did some sketches. This was based on pictures I found online.

Got the urge to do some actual sketches in my moleskin and use my watercolor pencils. I'm liking it so far. Quick and easy in...a few ways.
Trying to get a feel of the village and what the 2 kids's childhood home would be like.

Ah, now that I think about it, I do need to do more sketches of the city scenes in Kenya. and start simplifying the shapes and designs for elephants. Just their heads are complex shapes.